Right now I have a few fears that I’m deeply scared about. The first one is dying and not existing anymore. I cannot imagine what it would be like to not exist, to not experience. One of my worst fears, and saying this reminds me of Augustus Waters in The Fault In Our Stars. The second one is wasting my chances. I don’t want to end up 35 sad that I wasted my life. I’m struggling a lot with discipline and motivation at the moment and I’m scared of screwing it all up. I lied, I have more. Cancer is one of them too. RIP to Dametrius Meechie Walker. Fuck me having opportunities and wasting them while people who would’ve given everything for what I have died for cancer.